When it’s Time for a Reroute

Anytime now, I will have a new adjective with which to describe myself…divorced. The word feels heavy on my heart and tastes bitter on my tongue.
I truly hoped things would turn out differently, but that hope is gone now. I'm grappling for acceptance. I will soon be divorced. Period.
I have to let go of how I pictured my life panning out. No growing old together. No holding hands at our sons' weddings. No grandbabies crawling in bed between us in the middle of the night.
I grieve those nevers and many others. And you know what? That's ok. Divorce steals future memories and taints ones already lived. Grief is an appropriate response. My loved ones don't like to see me sad, and the people pleaser in me hates causing them any discomfort. But, I am, indeed, sad. I'm not going to wallow in it, but I do need the time to process it.
While the hope for a restored marriage is gone, my hope in God is strong and solid. I sense God gently nudging me in a new direction with the same destination.
It's like finding an alternate route when the one you're on has a "road closed" sign. You don't throw the whole trip out the window because of one road closure. You reroute and get back moving toward the destination. But, sometimes, you have to take a pit stop and figure things out. I think that's where I am right now.
Is it time for a reroute for you, too? Let's go to our Navigator for direction.
I don't know where to go from here. I thought my future was set, and now everything feels so up-in-the-air. But, I know my feelings aren't fact. I know nothing catches You by surprise. I know You've got me, Lord. I trust You even when I can't see the next step in front of me.
Though my path is changing, "Your word is [still] a lamp for my feet, [and] a light on my path" (Psalm 119:105 NIV).
"Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long" (Psalm 25:4-5 NIV).
Bring me out of this "in the dark" season and into a new dawn. "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life" (Psalm 143:8 NIV).
To You, I entrust my life.
To You, I entrust my life.
To You, I entrust my life.
Right this moment, I make a conscious decision to trust You completely. I will not buy in to my up-and-down emotions. I will submit this moment and the ones after it to You trusting You to make my path straight and true and honest (Proverbs 3:5-6).
"Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead, nor will you let your faithful one see decay. You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand" (Psalm 16:5-11 NIV).
I choose to follow You, Lord, wherever You lead me.
In the name of Jesus I pray, AMEN
Have you reached a roadblock in your life? I'd love to pray for you as you seek God's new direction.

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