When you’re waiting on the other shoe to drop

Have you ever sensed something really bad is about to happen? Have you ever had dread spread so heavy on your heart that you can't seem to take a deep breath? Have you ever felt like you can't relax because you're waiting on the other shoe to drop?
The last time I felt this way was back when my family had a string of losses. Family members dropped like flies. Just when we'd catch our breath from one loss, someone else would die. It was horrible, and I did not handle it well. I turned to alcohol and food to soothe my frayed nerves. I sunk into a deep, debilitating depression. I became so self-focused that I couldn't see the people I loved most were hurting, too, and needed me to see them.
Years later, I see how my behavior then contributed to the death of my marriage.
Yet, here I am with that same sense of dread...my ears strained to hear the deafening crash of "the other shoe."
Here's the thing, friends. There's always another shoe. And guess what? It's probably going to drop.
Jesus said it Himself: "In this world, you will have trouble" (John 16:33 NIV).
But He doesn't stop there. Yes, trouble is a given in this broken world, but Jesus made a hope-filled declaration that still stands true. "Take heart! I have overcome the world" (John 16:33 NIV).
I refuse to let any more good things slip through my fingers because I was too distracted waiting on the other shoe to drop. Let it drop! I trust in Jesus Christ!
Is your fear of future trouble robbing you of joyful living today? Let's go to Jesus.
My heart is worn out from waiting for the other shoe to drop. I need Your help, Lord. Please replace my dread=filled speculations with joy-filled certainty.
Bad things will happen, Lord; this I know. But You are with me... ever leading, ever loving, ever lifting me up. "Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me" (Psalm 23:4 NIV).
Help me to stop bracing myself  for disaster and to start resting in the safety of Your arms.
I hear Your vow to me, and I choose to receive it in faith.
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior" (Isaiah 43:1-3 NIV).
Help me to stop wrestling with "what-if's" and to start reminding myself of "what is."
“The Lord is my helper, so I will have no fear. What can mere people do to me?" (Hebrews 13:6 NLT).
"Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. For you, Lord, have delivered me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the Lord in the land of the living" (Psalm 116:7-9 NIV).
Help me to stop listening to lies and to start bellowing truth.
"When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever" (Psalm 73:21-26 NIV).
I choose to clothe myself with strength and dignity appropriate for my position as Your cherished child. I laugh at the days to come because I know Who You are and Whose I am. No matter how many shoes drop, they can't change that.
Trusting in the One in Whose name I pray, AMEN