I left “Poor Me” at mile marker 592. It’s time to get on with my life.
No more limping along. No more licking my wounds. No more looking back.
While I was on the last leg of my road trip from Arizona to Louisiana, a friend reached out to me with a statement I can’t get out of my mind.
“Don’t let people love you into mediocrity. And don’t get comfortable.”
How did she know every fiber of my being wanted to crawl up my sister’s driveway straight into her guest bedroom and stay there with my head under the covers for at least two weeks?
I don’t have time to hunker down and hide. I need a job. I need a place to serve. I need a life.
I’ll be living with my sister and brother-in-love for a while. And they do love me a bunch. But I can’t take advantage of their compassion for “the baby girl.” (They may or may not call me that at times…)
I’m a big girl. I can do hard things. I am strong because the Spirit of the Living God lives in me.
These first few days are about settling in and making a game plan. Suitcases are getting emptied, and the printer/fax is humming with paperwork for my Louisiana teaching certificate. I scoped out my walking trail and discovered a punching bag and weights out in the barn. I’m investigating my sister’s routine, so I can see how I can contribute, fill in gaps, and earn my keep.
God blessed me with living, breathing examples of “do what you gotta do” people. You should see how hard my sister and brother-in-love work every day to build their new propane business.
No excuses. No complaining. No compromise.
It’s no accident God placed me here with them. I’ve been the queen of all three of those things. No more.
Once again, You’re working everything for my good (Romans 8:28).
I was blinded by my hurt feelings, but now, I see the facts.
I see You carefully positioning me for Your purposes and for my purification and empowerment. By Your strength, I’m ready to be a “do what you gotta do” person.
Your “divine power has given [me] everything [I] need for a godly life through [my] knowledge of [You] who called [me] by [Your] own glory and goodness” (1 Peter 1:3 NIV).
I will “continue to work out [my] salvation with fear and trembling, for it is [You] who works in [me] to will and to act in order to fulfill [Your] good purpose. [Help me to] do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that [I] may become blameless and pure [child] of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation. Then [I] will shine among them like stars in the sky as [I] hold firmly to the word of life” (Philippians 2:12-16 NIV).
“It is for freedom that Christ has set [me] free. [I will] stand firm, then, and [will] not let [myself] be burdened again by a yoke of slavery” (Galatians 5:1 NIV).
I cling to Your powerful presence. I can’t do life without You.
I trust Your wisdom to light my path. I don’t trust my hazy judgment.
I seek Your face to affirm each step I take. I won’t confuse human approval for divine approval.
I depend on Your strength to do this thing. I’m not strong enough on my own.
Thank you, Lord.
You are Who I need. You have all I need. You are everything.
In Jesus’ Name I pray, AMEN