Anytime now, I will have a new adjective with which to describe myself…divorced. The word feels heavy on my heart and tastes bitter on my tongue.
I truly hoped things would turn out differently, but that hope is gone now. I'm grappling for acceptance. I will soon be divorced. Period.
I have to let go of how I pictured my life panning out. No growing old together. No holding hands at our sons' weddings. No grandbabies crawling in bed between us in the middle of the night.
I grieve those nevers and many others. And you know what? That's ok. Divorce steals future memories and taints ones already lived. Grief is an appropriate response. My loved ones don't like to see me sad, and the people pleaser in me hates causing them any discomfort. But, I am, indeed, sad. I'm not going to wallow in it, but I do need the time to process it.
While the hope for a restored marriage is gone, my hope in God is strong and solid. I sense God gently nudging me in a new direction with the same destination.
It's like finding an alternate route when the one you're on has a "road closed" sign. You don't throw the whole trip out the window because of one road closure. You reroute and get back moving toward the destination. But, sometimes, you have to take a pit stop and figure things out. I think that's where I am right now.
Is it time for a reroute for you, too? Let's go to our Navigator for direction.
I don't know where to go from here. I thought my future was set, and now everything feels so up-in-the-air. But, I know my feelings aren't fact. I know nothing catches You by surprise. I know You've got me, Lord. I trust You even when I can't see the next step in front of me.
Though my path is changing, "Your word is [still] a lamp for my feet, [and] a light on my path" (Psalm 119:105 NIV).
"Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long" (Psalm 25:4-5 NIV).
Bring me out of this "in the dark" season and into a new dawn. "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life" (Psalm 143:8 NIV).
To You, I entrust my life.
To You, I entrust my life.
To You, I entrust my life.
Right this moment, I make a conscious decision to trust You completely. I will not buy in to my up-and-down emotions. I will submit this moment and the ones after it to You trusting You to make my path straight and true and honest (Proverbs 3:5-6).
"Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead, nor will you let your faithfulone see decay. You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand" (Psalm 16:5-11 NIV).
I choose to follow You, Lord, wherever You lead me.
In the name of Jesus I pray, AMEN
Have you reached a roadblock in your life? I'd love to pray for you as you seek God's new direction.
Welcome to my cozy new home on the web! I am beyond excited to begin this new journey called the "pray without ceasing life." I never dreamed a three-word Bible verse could change my life, but that's exactly what happened.
In Paul's first letter to the Thessalonians, he closes with a burst of instructions on how to live the God life well. Tucked in between rejoicing and giving thanks is a small but challenging phrase: "Pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17 ESV).
That verse has haunted me for decades. What does it mean? Is it even possible to pray constantly?As I meditated on the verse, I sensed the Lord breathing a working definition into my soul.
To pray without ceasing is to acknowledge God's constant presence in my life by maintaining a running conversation with Him throughout the day. As I share with God what I see, He allows me to peer through His lens and to experience life more deeply than I'd experience on my own. The pray without ceasing life is a life filled with divine appointments to be His hands, His feet and His heart. It's a life connected to the One who knows me best. It's a life filled with the glory of God.
Does that sound like something you want? Me too, friend, me too.
God is training me in this remarkable way of doing life. Slowly but surely, He is helping me eliminate distractions and tune in to Him. And, oh, how my eyes have been opened! I'm becoming a noticer. A noticer of needs. A noticer of beauty. A noticer of God's fingerprints on my life.
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Will you pray with me as I dedicate this site to Him?
Lord, thank you for not just loving us but liking us. Sometimes, it's hard to believe You, the God of Everything, enjoy our company. You long for intimacy with us even though we're rebellious, rowdy and regularly distracted. Give us prayerful hearts, Lord. Pray without ceasing hearts. Hearts that run to You for help. Hearts that bubble over with gratitude. Hearts that see the world through Your eyes. In Jesus' Name I pray, AMEN